I Think I Went A Little Bit Crazy,

I was a bit bored last night and the there was nothing on T.V. So I plugged in my Ipod and just put the thing on shuffle and started drawing.

I haven't drawn anything in a long time, so I feel kinda good that I still got it after such a long dry spell.

But It got me thinking. What if my parents really did let me go to FIDM or The Art Institute? I wonder where I would be right now. And I wonder what I would be doing as a career.

Now, working in such a lucrative field, I don't know what I would do with an art degree. I know I can do so much with Psych degree, But I don't know if I wanted to do that either. Both art and Psych are my passion but I don't know what I want to do anymore. When people ask me what I do for a living, I am pretty satisfied with telling them what I do. But I guess I shouldn't settle for less. Don't get me wrong, this job of mine is a glamorous job and is great but, of course, nothing beats a degree.

I guess I just doubt myself own capabilities too easily. One minute I think I can't do it, the next minute I think I can.

I think It has become habit to speak in a subjunctive manner in terms of what I want and what I think I can do. I always think if I were to..

I should stop that.