I Think I Went A Little Bit Crazy,

I hung out with Sam today, and why did I go out with him today knowing that he would get me into something? I love Sam and all, but he is wayyyy too adult for me.

Okay so we went to Japanese Kitchen today and Had some marvelous sushi. I haven't had any sushi in a long long time and Japanese kitchen had hit the spot with it. I had this Volcano roll and a caterpillar roll, and Sam got a Rainbow roll and an Earthquake roll. They were all so good and we couldn't stop eating. But our wallets were getting scared so we had to stop.

After that we went to Barnes and Nobles and we just did some free reading. Sam kept reading his fashion magazines while I kept getting up every five minutes because I got bored that quick. It was a funny sight seeing me get up so much.

And after that, Sam Brought me to Express, formally known as Deja Vu. The most popular gay bar/club in Fresno. I kinda regret going, But at the same time I don't.
Sam brought me in there and started hugging some guys, they introduced me and started hugging me and kissing my cheek like crazy. I felt a little, no, very awkward because I am so not used to people hugging me, let alone kissing my cheek so casually like that! But I didn't fret because that was just their welcoming so I wasn't all offended or anything.
Sam Knows the bartender quite well so he got me a couple of drinks for free. I didn't want to turn down free drinks. But A couple turned out to be a lot, and that got me really messed up. I don't think I've ever gotten this drunk before.
I was so loosened up that I was leaning on random people. I made a few new friends that way, we started talking and exchanging numbers. Although, I don't remember saving them because I was not paying attention. But I was talking about so many random things, and hugging random ass people. I was a hug whore, and I kept hugging everyone and their mom. I don't know what I was thinking but it was really weird for me.
We started watching the drag queens do their show and I was just dancing off the walls with Sam and he was just egging me on.
After that, we had more weird talk. And then before we left Sam introduced me to more people and I just gave them a hug out of no where. As we left for the door, they said their goodbyes and kissed me on the lips! And that time I was kind of offended but Sam dragged me to the car before I could say anything.

After that we went to get some Carne Asada fries so that I could sober up. I had about sixteen cups of water and I still wasn't sobered up. I had so many drinks it wasn't even funny any more.

After that we drove home. I think I did the stupidest thing in my life and drove myself home while I was kind of tipsy still. Or drunk for that matter. But I got home safely. In my drunken mind I was so scared. I am not doing that ever again. I talk so much shit about people who do it all the time but yet I did it. It was bound to happen I guess.

I got really messed up and it took me until about four in the morning to feel normal again.
I don't know if I enjoyed this experience or not. It was different for me. I guess I can do without the alcohol next time.
I was so messed up I was just doing things to move and to be stupid I guess. I don't really like myself drunk. But I guess I had fun.
I was just really irritated at how Sam kept telling everyone that it was my first time and that he was breaking me in. That made me feel so dirty for agreeing to go in the first place.

I think it's weird how I hang out with such different groups of people. Sam Channa and Troy are like my wild side, Charlene is my close friend that's pretty much on my level of maturity, and there are friends like Marisol, Ruth and Justin who are really near my age and are just really naiive about things.

I am supposed to go with Marisol Ruth and Justin to San Fran this Saturday. I don't know how that's going to go. As I said, they are a bit naiive when it comes to these things and don't know much about reality in general. I mean I don't blame them because they haven't been out and about much at all like I have, but it's just that I feel like I'm going to be babysitting. But I took their offer because they said they'll pay for gas since I'm the better driver out of all of them.

I think it's so weird how I just did such an adult thing, and then I'm going to hang out with kids right after. It's like I have a secret life or something. But it's not really a secret life. I'll tell them if I ask. But this little event makes me feel a step up from them for some reason.

I'll see how Saturday goes. I hope we find a cheap motel. They are so sleeping on the floor hahahah.