Wednesday, December 23, 2009
I'm getting a little worried about my trip back home to San Diego. Charlene and I planned on staying there for four days and three nights, but that's only if my Aunt is allowing us to stay over with her. I have more relatives, but none that will probably take us in for that long.
I sent a message over to my aunt over Facebook and she hasn't responded to me yet. Which really concerns me because I will not be able to afford a hotel for that long.
This is starting to bum me out a little. I feel like a spoiled brat for saying that. There's worse things.
Lately, I've been a little on the pessimistic side of things. Maybe it's the whole Christmas thing that's getting me down. I absolutely do not like Christmas at all. It makes me a little irritated every year. I'm glad that I'm working on Christmas eve, Christmas and Post-Christmas.
But really, I'm a little tired of being on the optimistic side of things. Why can't I be the angry one and give tantrums for once? Lately, I've been feeling like I need someone to hear me out. I want to complain for once. I want to talk about my past. I want to tell someone why things are the way things are with me. I need to stop making excuses for myself and telling people that I'm fine when things aren't fine. I guess I'm a little tired of being on receiving end of the vent all the time.
I hope that I make money in tips this week so I can at least afford a hotel for one night or two. I feel like I really need to leave this place and just get away. I need time to think to myself and I just need to get a lot off my chest.
I was talking to someone online today, she said I should start writing lyrics for myself because I'm the correct emotional state of mind to be saying stuff to sing. I think I might do that. Sounds soothing so far.
I sent a message over to my aunt over Facebook and she hasn't responded to me yet. Which really concerns me because I will not be able to afford a hotel for that long.
This is starting to bum me out a little. I feel like a spoiled brat for saying that. There's worse things.
Lately, I've been a little on the pessimistic side of things. Maybe it's the whole Christmas thing that's getting me down. I absolutely do not like Christmas at all. It makes me a little irritated every year. I'm glad that I'm working on Christmas eve, Christmas and Post-Christmas.
But really, I'm a little tired of being on the optimistic side of things. Why can't I be the angry one and give tantrums for once? Lately, I've been feeling like I need someone to hear me out. I want to complain for once. I want to talk about my past. I want to tell someone why things are the way things are with me. I need to stop making excuses for myself and telling people that I'm fine when things aren't fine. I guess I'm a little tired of being on receiving end of the vent all the time.
I hope that I make money in tips this week so I can at least afford a hotel for one night or two. I feel like I really need to leave this place and just get away. I need time to think to myself and I just need to get a lot off my chest.
I was talking to someone online today, she said I should start writing lyrics for myself because I'm the correct emotional state of mind to be saying stuff to sing. I think I might do that. Sounds soothing so far.
If your aunt is like me - she probably never checks her facebook acct.
Hopefully you get to stay there and save some money.
Have a good holiday and a nice trip! I hope the tip gods are generous the next few days.
Yep yep, have a nice relaxing trip!
If you ever need to vent, feel free to contact your ole buddy SG, completely confidential and hey, I'm all the way in Canada. :p
The lyric writing sounds pretty cool too!
All the best to you Masa.
Sending you good vibes,
SG
It sounds like you just copied a page from my life! Shit, Although Christmas, at the very least, is a distraction from all the other bull. I love the lyric idea though. I've tried it myself and thoroughly enjoyed it.
I have another aunt that is going to sponsor my stay in Long Beach instead. Oh well for San Diego. I'm glad I have some where nice to go. And San Diego is only an hour away so I'll just go down there while I'm staying in Long Beach. Problem solved!
Writing lyrics is harder than I thought. I don't take myself seriously enough to do it. I keep making jokes and laughing at myself. But It's coming along well. For the most part.
But thanks guys, I really appreciate the support..
And welcome to my blog Rachel, it's nice to meet you!