Tuesday, December 1, 2009
I'm starting to understand why women fall into a bit of misandry. Well, maybe not. That's going a little too far. Maybe it's the guys I've been involved with. All psychos hah. Maybe I'm the psycho and no one told me in my face yet.
I went to Ev's house to "talk". When I arrived, he acted like nothing happened. In fact he was really glad to see me. It was like nothing happened a couple days ago. How was your day? How are you? What's been happening at your casino? Let's eat.
Like nothing happened at all. I should have kept it that way. He was really sweet and we shared a "moment" and things were perfect. He was being really sweet.
When I brought up the argument things went really sour. I just mentioned how I'd like to ease up on the ex issue and he flipped and got really mad at me. I was called selfish again.There was yelling, he told me I was just like his ex, I got a little annoyed and yelled back. I told him "well if you miss him so much then call him. What am I here for then?!", he looked at me with a look of diappointment. I started to cry a little so I left without saying anything.
While I was driving, I thought about it, I shouldn't have said anything. I shouldnt have said what I said. I should have just kept my mouth shut. This doesn't feel good. I messed up.
I'm going to apologize tomorrow.
I still have hope. We haven't broken up yet.
I told some people about this, when I'm telling them the situation, I feel like I know exactly what to do. They tell me things that make me see that I'm not at fault, but when it comes to me and Evan face to face, I suddenly feel guilty for everything. I don know. I feel foolish. And I sound desperate. This is embarrassing. Out of all the things I get embarrassed over.
I've been hanging out with my buddy Charlene lately. We've been having a lot of fun and it's been keeping my mind off things. In fact she's shocked that I'm having problems because I act like nothing is happening. I befriended her coworker and we hit it off really well. We actually want to go back to their house on Saturday.
I'm going to bake Evan a sorry cake tomorrow. He loves it when I bake him cakes.
I went to Ev's house to "talk". When I arrived, he acted like nothing happened. In fact he was really glad to see me. It was like nothing happened a couple days ago. How was your day? How are you? What's been happening at your casino? Let's eat.
Like nothing happened at all. I should have kept it that way. He was really sweet and we shared a "moment" and things were perfect. He was being really sweet.
When I brought up the argument things went really sour. I just mentioned how I'd like to ease up on the ex issue and he flipped and got really mad at me. I was called selfish again.There was yelling, he told me I was just like his ex, I got a little annoyed and yelled back. I told him "well if you miss him so much then call him. What am I here for then?!", he looked at me with a look of diappointment. I started to cry a little so I left without saying anything.
While I was driving, I thought about it, I shouldn't have said anything. I shouldnt have said what I said. I should have just kept my mouth shut. This doesn't feel good. I messed up.
I'm going to apologize tomorrow.
I still have hope. We haven't broken up yet.
I told some people about this, when I'm telling them the situation, I feel like I know exactly what to do. They tell me things that make me see that I'm not at fault, but when it comes to me and Evan face to face, I suddenly feel guilty for everything. I don know. I feel foolish. And I sound desperate. This is embarrassing. Out of all the things I get embarrassed over.
I've been hanging out with my buddy Charlene lately. We've been having a lot of fun and it's been keeping my mind off things. In fact she's shocked that I'm having problems because I act like nothing is happening. I befriended her coworker and we hit it off really well. We actually want to go back to their house on Saturday.
I'm going to bake Evan a sorry cake tomorrow. He loves it when I bake him cakes.
I'm sorry that didn't go as well as you had hoped.
I just don't get why he gets so defensive when you ask him not to talk about his ex so much. Ex's are always a sore subject in any relationship - but it sounds like he's got a little too much baggage there. You've only brought it up twice and he's gone off the deep end both times? It's not like you're constantly nagging him about it.
Good luck with the cake. Did you ever stop to think that maybe he stages these arguments just for the cake? JK.
Good luck.
I kind understand the ex baggage, ughhh exs. I think with time, he'll learn to think less about the ex and more about you. Having a lot of those "moments" and of course delicious cake helps too.
Good luck Masa! Oh relationships, lol.