Friday, December 11, 2009
It’s kinda weird being in a relationship where you know nothing is going to happen. I mean, you can never really know what is going to happen in any relationship. But how how can you not predict something when things are going exactly as they are foreseen?
For me, things are just going as they are. I guess I can say I’m lucky to know this guy. He’s really a lot things I look for in someone as of right now. But where is this going when all we do is scrounge up time to see each other? He works when I don’t work, and vice versa. He’s gone at least 11 hours out of the day due to distance of his work, and all he really does is rest up for the next day. Sure, on his days off we try to spend time, but I have work at night so we can’t do too much. I have to catch him right when he gets home just so I can have a glimpse of him, or just have a few words. Or even a hug.
He talks like we’ve known each other for so long. He talks like he knows me left and right, when really we know almost nothing about each other. This guy also talks like I’m ready to settle. I’m sorry, but I’m only 21 and you are 27, I’m sorry if I have to decline these proposals of living together or anything further.
For some reason, I know where this is going. I’m happy with this guy, but yet, I know this relationship isn’t really growing. So I know already that we are going to soon break it off.
It’s kind of sad knowing what is to come. I guess I’m just enjoying the now.
For me, things are just going as they are. I guess I can say I’m lucky to know this guy. He’s really a lot things I look for in someone as of right now. But where is this going when all we do is scrounge up time to see each other? He works when I don’t work, and vice versa. He’s gone at least 11 hours out of the day due to distance of his work, and all he really does is rest up for the next day. Sure, on his days off we try to spend time, but I have work at night so we can’t do too much. I have to catch him right when he gets home just so I can have a glimpse of him, or just have a few words. Or even a hug.
He talks like we’ve known each other for so long. He talks like he knows me left and right, when really we know almost nothing about each other. This guy also talks like I’m ready to settle. I’m sorry, but I’m only 21 and you are 27, I’m sorry if I have to decline these proposals of living together or anything further.
For some reason, I know where this is going. I’m happy with this guy, but yet, I know this relationship isn’t really growing. So I know already that we are going to soon break it off.
It’s kind of sad knowing what is to come. I guess I’m just enjoying the now.
We have spoken about this before, but he acts like its going to be okay. I like the attitude although, I'm being real and saying that we do the same thing over and over again, and it's not like we do much either.
We haven't even left our area yet to go on any trips.
So, it's kind of weird. I already know this isn't going to last. But I guess we're both in it to have someone near to speak to because we're both lonely souls hahah.
That was very good advice, thank you.
Well - schedules tend to change over time. The more important aspect is whether or not you click. And it sounds like you do. Don't poison the well by assuming that you're going to split.
Maybe that's just your personality - sounds like you're hoping for the best but planning for the worst. In this case you're starting to condition yourself for a breakup.
I hope it all goes well.
Thanks,
Yeah, that's exactly how I am. I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing.
The schedule thing is the tricky part. And it gets trickier from there. But we try.
is it possible for you two to book a day or two off for the two of you to take a well-deserved outing?
oh and the holiday season is around the corner, maybe you can find a day or two in there?
i think you two just need a bit more together time. =)
Oh gosh, with the holidays coming, it's especially harder for both of us to get together since we both work at casinos. Days off change and it's just off the hook.
We're trying though. We planned a little something next week. Its probably all we can do for now because we are straight up booked for work like no other!