Friday, December 4, 2009
I currently live in Central California.
I live in a small town in Central California to be exact.
I do not like it here.
The people here all seem like they have no future.
The people here are not dating material.
The air quality is really bad here and I've never been more sick in my life.
There is nothing to do here but drink and have angsty sex.
I moved here from San Diego four years ago after living there for ten years.
And I never have lost my SoCal beach city spirit.
It has been Four, going on five years sine I've been back to San Diego. Since then, I've grown up a lot. I've moved on, and things that were important to me are nothing compared to what I worry about today. I don't speak to many of my friends back home. They've either moved on, or just disappeared. That's what happens when your friends were drug abusers. It's a terrible thought, but I wonder if they're all living...
With all these trips that I have been making this year, for some reason, I can't get myself to go back to San Diego. I mean, I love San Diego. The weather is always fair, and even if it is a big city, you feel very relaxed in a sense that traffic isn't your worst enemy, crowds are friendly, you don't have to pay to park every where, and the air is so nice. My best years are from there, So many cinematic memories, it's the reason for my over the top day dreams.
I don't know what's holding me back. Maybe the fact that I don't speak to anyone any more? The fear of coming to nothing. I can't really call friends up that remain there because when I go, Charlene will be with me and it'll be hard to do anything if a friend wants to hang out and catch up. That, and I would need more than a day to catch up with friends. Time is money. I'll save that for when I come back by myself.
Just thinking about trip gives me chills. There's always this weird feeling in my stomach thinking about, something like stage fright almost. I don't know how I'll react when I get there. I'll probably be so excited that I'll be speechless the whole time.
I really hope this trip goes as planned.
I'm excited to see the Downtown San Diego City skyline at night.
I'm VERRY excited to go to the old taco shop that I used to go to. I swear it's the best.
I am also excited to see the sunset at the pier and spend a day at the hi-rise food court at the mall in down town.
I think I'm ready for you now San Diego. You've changed a bit, and so have I.
I live in a small town in Central California to be exact.
I do not like it here.
The people here all seem like they have no future.
The people here are not dating material.
The air quality is really bad here and I've never been more sick in my life.
There is nothing to do here but drink and have angsty sex.
I moved here from San Diego four years ago after living there for ten years.
And I never have lost my SoCal beach city spirit.
It has been Four, going on five years sine I've been back to San Diego. Since then, I've grown up a lot. I've moved on, and things that were important to me are nothing compared to what I worry about today. I don't speak to many of my friends back home. They've either moved on, or just disappeared. That's what happens when your friends were drug abusers. It's a terrible thought, but I wonder if they're all living...
With all these trips that I have been making this year, for some reason, I can't get myself to go back to San Diego. I mean, I love San Diego. The weather is always fair, and even if it is a big city, you feel very relaxed in a sense that traffic isn't your worst enemy, crowds are friendly, you don't have to pay to park every where, and the air is so nice. My best years are from there, So many cinematic memories, it's the reason for my over the top day dreams.
I don't know what's holding me back. Maybe the fact that I don't speak to anyone any more? The fear of coming to nothing. I can't really call friends up that remain there because when I go, Charlene will be with me and it'll be hard to do anything if a friend wants to hang out and catch up. That, and I would need more than a day to catch up with friends. Time is money. I'll save that for when I come back by myself.
Just thinking about trip gives me chills. There's always this weird feeling in my stomach thinking about, something like stage fright almost. I don't know how I'll react when I get there. I'll probably be so excited that I'll be speechless the whole time.
I really hope this trip goes as planned.
I'm excited to see the Downtown San Diego City skyline at night.
I'm VERRY excited to go to the old taco shop that I used to go to. I swear it's the best.
I am also excited to see the sunset at the pier and spend a day at the hi-rise food court at the mall in down town.
I think I'm ready for you now San Diego. You've changed a bit, and so have I.
Have fun (I'm sure you will). Maybe look for a job while there, especially if you're unhappy in you current town. San Diego is a nice playground.