Saturday, February 6, 2010
This may sound cliche and what not, but one of my favorite movies as of late is Shelter. I mean, sure everyone loves it, but that movie hits me in so many different places. Oddly, it doesn't even hit me too much in the gay area, just a little bit. But not as much as the movie as a whole. I guess the situation hits hard at home. I mean, I'm not stuck where my parents are dead and disabled and I have to take care of my alcoholic sister's son, but I mean, it hits home with some of the issues along those lines.
When I watch that movie, it makes me happy to see San Pedro. I've been there, I've been to all those places they've featured, and honestly, it feels nice. It's a weird feeling where I forget things, I forget how crappy things are sometimes and just be.
Its a good happy feeling. I wish I could be like that more often. Maybe I should. Just maybe.
There are days when I just want to disappear and not tell anyone where I'm going. Let them find out for themselves. Let them search for me all over, and find me sleeping peacefully in some random house and when I wake up to see them there, they'll ask me where the hell I've been and I'll tell them wonderful stories of my adventures and friends and the man that sells tamales on the corner ever morning at ten and how he gives me extra for being a loyal customer.
I'll tell them about the cool things I've learned, I'll show them how much I've grown, how much I've loved. I'll tell them a story worth sitting down for.
And then the next morning, I'll disappear again, and leave them with a life lesson that they'll take home with them. Some thing that impacts their lives. They'll go home and tell everyone that they never found me and that I'm probably in a better place.
I sound fucking high right now.
When I watch that movie, it makes me happy to see San Pedro. I've been there, I've been to all those places they've featured, and honestly, it feels nice. It's a weird feeling where I forget things, I forget how crappy things are sometimes and just be.
Its a good happy feeling. I wish I could be like that more often. Maybe I should. Just maybe.
There are days when I just want to disappear and not tell anyone where I'm going. Let them find out for themselves. Let them search for me all over, and find me sleeping peacefully in some random house and when I wake up to see them there, they'll ask me where the hell I've been and I'll tell them wonderful stories of my adventures and friends and the man that sells tamales on the corner ever morning at ten and how he gives me extra for being a loyal customer.
I'll tell them about the cool things I've learned, I'll show them how much I've grown, how much I've loved. I'll tell them a story worth sitting down for.
And then the next morning, I'll disappear again, and leave them with a life lesson that they'll take home with them. Some thing that impacts their lives. They'll go home and tell everyone that they never found me and that I'm probably in a better place.
I sound fucking high right now.
i recall watchin Shelter last yr after downloading it (^.^)
one of the best gay themed films of all. hve to say it was better than Brokeback Mountain!
dont know what to say, but it captivated me, showed a positive light of hving a gay lifestyle.
anyhows, thanks for ur concerned note on my blog. i appreciate it (^.^)
I'm going to get burnt by everyone by saying this, but I didn't like brokeback mountain all that much.
The plot just wasn't in my liking. at all.
Shelter is a good movie. It hit home with a lot of issues for me so it made it all the better experience watching it. Plus the soundtrack just matched and it gave me this weird happy feeling.
But anyway, you're welcome.