Sunday, May 24, 2009
These past couple of days have not been very good. Not exactly bad per se, but I have been quite moody about things lately.
I wonder if it is the heat getting to me or what. But I really don't feel like in right state of mind to really even know what I am talking about.
I went straight to my friends' house after work and just lounged about over there. It was nice to hang out and do nothing. I watched a movie called Practical Magic with Sandra Bullock and I liked it. I like watching those 90's movies. It's nice to watch movies that don't involve cell phones and technology. Not to mention the soundtracks are always good.
I played with their PedEgg. I've always wanted to try using it, although my feet didn't need it at all, so I didn't get to really experience it to its fullest. I guess I take care of my feet better than I thought.
But It was nice to lounge around and do nothing with them. That's pretty much all they do.
I noticed that I have been on edge about certain things. Usually I am really passive about things and I don't let things get to me, but little things are just starting to annoy me more than ever. Not that it didn't seem that way before.. HAH.
I've also become horribly shy and so withdrawn. I'm usually very vocal about things. I notice myself struggling to find things to talk about when there is someone in the room with me, or on the table. I just try to avoid it altogether and try to smile it off. I'm usually the bold one, breaking the ice.
I guess I'm getting tired of being to bold one. I find it less pleasurable making contact with strangers than I used to.
And there's this terrible thing I would like to get out in the open. I am not a jealous person what so ever, but I guess it's normal to feel jealous once in a while. But lately I've been jealous of people in relationships. Yes, I said it.
Me, jealous of them. I get jealous at the fact that they have each other to confide in. I know it isn't the same for all relationships, although, it's nice knowing they have someone there for them some what.
This is crazy talk coming from me.
That's all that has been happening. Work is the same as always. I don't know how else to put it. But I guess it could be better.
Maybe all I need is a good slushy to cheer me up or something.
I wonder if it is the heat getting to me or what. But I really don't feel like in right state of mind to really even know what I am talking about.
I went straight to my friends' house after work and just lounged about over there. It was nice to hang out and do nothing. I watched a movie called Practical Magic with Sandra Bullock and I liked it. I like watching those 90's movies. It's nice to watch movies that don't involve cell phones and technology. Not to mention the soundtracks are always good.
I played with their PedEgg. I've always wanted to try using it, although my feet didn't need it at all, so I didn't get to really experience it to its fullest. I guess I take care of my feet better than I thought.
But It was nice to lounge around and do nothing with them. That's pretty much all they do.
I noticed that I have been on edge about certain things. Usually I am really passive about things and I don't let things get to me, but little things are just starting to annoy me more than ever. Not that it didn't seem that way before.. HAH.
I've also become horribly shy and so withdrawn. I'm usually very vocal about things. I notice myself struggling to find things to talk about when there is someone in the room with me, or on the table. I just try to avoid it altogether and try to smile it off. I'm usually the bold one, breaking the ice.
I guess I'm getting tired of being to bold one. I find it less pleasurable making contact with strangers than I used to.
And there's this terrible thing I would like to get out in the open. I am not a jealous person what so ever, but I guess it's normal to feel jealous once in a while. But lately I've been jealous of people in relationships. Yes, I said it.
Me, jealous of them. I get jealous at the fact that they have each other to confide in. I know it isn't the same for all relationships, although, it's nice knowing they have someone there for them some what.
This is crazy talk coming from me.
That's all that has been happening. Work is the same as always. I don't know how else to put it. But I guess it could be better.
Maybe all I need is a good slushy to cheer me up or something.
Hahaha, yes, I know what you mean about things becoming more annoying. I think it works like sensitization. Eventually it should pass, unless of course, the annoying thing becomes more annoying over time for one reason or another.
Periods of shyness and withdrawal? Yea, I had that a few weeks ago too when I was fundraising. Try coming up with some "ready to go" icebreaker lines and just throwing those out and expanding on their response if they are into it, that helped me a few weeks ago.
Jealous of those in relationships. *ding ding* That's SO me. When I see two people together, such as my sister and her boyfriend, it hurts like a mother !@#%$^. I try to focus on the besties at times like that or family.
You know what gets me in a better mood? I think you know. Hahaha.
Good luck with work. Hope things get better, they probably will.
*big hugs*