Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Today is Leah's 21st birthday and I haven't spoken to her since I got my new phone number.
And she sends me messages here and there through social networking sites on how we don't talk ever since I got my new number. She has my number and I've texted her before. I don't know what her problem is.
I don't think I'm going to do anything for her for her birthday. She isn't a special enough friend for me to do anything for. Plus I feel like she doesn't deserve my attention or something for some reason. She's only a superficial friend and I don't think I could ever get close to her.
It's funny because I thought I liked her but it turns out shes not a good friend at all. But I don't care. Even if she virtually has no friends, She can always find someone to take her out to do something. She's that desperate, and she can get guys to notice her without trying. Just like she gets rid of her boyfriend so fast and talks to three guys and messes around with a couple more guy after guy.
She's so desperate that she goes out with guys that she knows have a sexual interest in her. She is going to get date raped one day. But that's not my problem. I try to keep her away from that but she draws it to herself.
I don't know. The thought of her makes me bitter because I have a feeling shes just using me and I really see no future with her as a friend or anything. She's a weak friend I think. She doesn't like to suggest any place she wants to go except talk to guys, or go some where too loud and too noisy. She needs a party friend that doesn't mind that she goes off and makes out with someone. She really does.
I guess I should stop making entries about her. I don't know what it is, but she makes me kinda sick and bitter every time I see her. She's does every thing I don't like people doing. And I really can't benefit from her as a friend.
I think she's going to be a friend where if I have no one to eat dinner with, I'll call her but that's nothing more. Just a dinner buddy.
And she sends me messages here and there through social networking sites on how we don't talk ever since I got my new number. She has my number and I've texted her before. I don't know what her problem is.
I don't think I'm going to do anything for her for her birthday. She isn't a special enough friend for me to do anything for. Plus I feel like she doesn't deserve my attention or something for some reason. She's only a superficial friend and I don't think I could ever get close to her.
It's funny because I thought I liked her but it turns out shes not a good friend at all. But I don't care. Even if she virtually has no friends, She can always find someone to take her out to do something. She's that desperate, and she can get guys to notice her without trying. Just like she gets rid of her boyfriend so fast and talks to three guys and messes around with a couple more guy after guy.
She's so desperate that she goes out with guys that she knows have a sexual interest in her. She is going to get date raped one day. But that's not my problem. I try to keep her away from that but she draws it to herself.
I don't know. The thought of her makes me bitter because I have a feeling shes just using me and I really see no future with her as a friend or anything. She's a weak friend I think. She doesn't like to suggest any place she wants to go except talk to guys, or go some where too loud and too noisy. She needs a party friend that doesn't mind that she goes off and makes out with someone. She really does.
I guess I should stop making entries about her. I don't know what it is, but she makes me kinda sick and bitter every time I see her. She's does every thing I don't like people doing. And I really can't benefit from her as a friend.
I think she's going to be a friend where if I have no one to eat dinner with, I'll call her but that's nothing more. Just a dinner buddy.
She feels like an "Andrew" to me. Yea, she doesn't seem like close friend material, but I guess it's good to have "party/casual" friends as well too.
I know the bitter feeling. I know I felt devalued as a person when I was hanging out with Andrew, it just seems like they have so many contacts and they are indiscriminately making friends.
Oh, how hard it is to find those special friends. I haven't been able to make any more after the 2 BFFs.