I Think I Went A Little Bit Crazy,

SO I had a pretty rough night at work tonight. I don't know what it is about the young people my age these days. They are so hard to talk to, so rude, and they have to be so loud, it makes me ashamed to be in that age group.

Well, that was the same story all night. I was pretty annoyed. I was thinking of Evan Lysacek all day though. I have a major crush on him after his performance in the olympics and got a gold medal. He just blew me away.

Any ways, after work, my mind was jelly, it sort of is still right now. But I'm awake now after turn of events I'm about to talk about.

Okay, so after work, I was walking back to my car in our huge parking lot. Out of no where, I see this man walking behind me. I look back and it was Evan.

He ran after me and asked me how I was and all was okay. Then, he led me to his car and told me he wanted to show me something.

So then I get into the car, he shows me the new mirror that he got for his car like I have in my car, and I'm like, that's it??
So then he gets close and smells my hair and tells me my hair smells good.
After that, we were making out of no where!!!!

We stopped after a solid five minutes of mouth to mouth, and looked out the window saying "sorry" to each other and I tell him that I should go.

After that, I leave, and now I'm all flustered.

I get home and lay down and see a text from him " I still want you."

I feel so confused. SO frustrated. I fucking still like him this much. What am I doing? He's throwing himself at me.

Ugh, if it weren't for his fucking ex, I bet they still treat each other as a piece of ass.

Well, that was my night. I'm mad at myself now. I should have never done that.

I was doing so fine.