Wednesday, April 21, 2010
I've been gathering a bad habit of taking pills lately. My left heel is in really bad pain. I look things up on it and everything and everyone says to keep off of it as much as I can. That would be easy if it weren't my foot. I have to stand all day at work and walk all the time.
So I've been taking pain killers like crazy. I've been taking them twice a day and I can really feel these weird effects like I'm high or something when I take them.
Am I turning into a pill popper?
Another thing is that I've been talking to this guy. He isn't single but he talks so dirty to me! So what happens? I end up talking dirty back. He's a pretty cute guy, and we've been friends for a bit, but we just started talking really nasty to eachother out of no where. I feel kind weird doing it, I don't think I've ever spoken to any one like this before, and he has a boyfriend which makes me feel a little guilty. We just say nasty things to eachother, really nasty, but we never do anything. In fact, face to face we don't talk about these conversations to eachother, and we don't even say "cock" around eachother.
But as soon as night comes and we're settled it's like a crazy cyber sex session between us.
I'm hoping that he finds this all fun and games. Sometimes i get the feeling that he really wants to act on his words by saying things like " I really want it, I can't wait to see you" and stuff like that and I'm just like "uhhmm. Maybe".
I don't want to be a home
wrecker, and most of all, I don't want to do any of the nasty things I've said. That shit is
s embarrassing!
So I've been taking pain killers like crazy. I've been taking them twice a day and I can really feel these weird effects like I'm high or something when I take them.
Am I turning into a pill popper?
Another thing is that I've been talking to this guy. He isn't single but he talks so dirty to me! So what happens? I end up talking dirty back. He's a pretty cute guy, and we've been friends for a bit, but we just started talking really nasty to eachother out of no where. I feel kind weird doing it, I don't think I've ever spoken to any one like this before, and he has a boyfriend which makes me feel a little guilty. We just say nasty things to eachother, really nasty, but we never do anything. In fact, face to face we don't talk about these conversations to eachother, and we don't even say "cock" around eachother.
But as soon as night comes and we're settled it's like a crazy cyber sex session between us.
I'm hoping that he finds this all fun and games. Sometimes i get the feeling that he really wants to act on his words by saying things like " I really want it, I can't wait to see you" and stuff like that and I'm just like "uhhmm. Maybe".
I don't want to be a home
wrecker, and most of all, I don't want to do any of the nasty things I've said. That shit is
s embarrassing!
thngs are ALWAYS easier to say online, the dirty, the rude, the super silly.. lol
its because of human's perceptions.
anyhows, dont keep poppin pills.. i rmber when i had a flat left foot, id hve to take painkillers to stop the pain (>.<) after long, u just feel soooo numb all over.
i ended up paining for podiatry sessions to fix/manipulate my foot - all better now LOL (^.^)
Oh gosh, I need to go get some gels for my feet or something. seriously.
yeah, things are wayyy easier to say through text message and such. I'm just scared that his boyfriend is going to beat me up for saying things.
But whatever, I think the the boyfriend knows.