Monday, November 16, 2009
Okay, this sounds dumb, but I'm having Male PMS. Not so much the pain and stuff, but I am so mean lately, and I feel like crap and I just ... UGGGGHH.
And I'm just taking things wayy out of context and I get all bent out of shape out of no where, which is totally nothing like I usually am. Like today, a coworker asked me why my belt was the way it was, and I got mad out of no where and asked her in such a rude way "WHY?? What's wrong with it?". She could totally sense that I was all edgy and clarified what she was asking about. She was asking why the notches skip all over the place on my belt, because I had to put more notches in it since I have lost weight since I bought that belt. But really I almost bit her head off.
I think I'm better now that I'm at home. I think I'm just making tantrums at work. AHAH. But it's not that bad I guess.
For some odd reason, I keep going around thinking that I'm 5'10 or something. I keep thinking that I'm average height and I'm not that tall. Until I hear this tall girl talking and she said that she was 5'10 and the top of her head was about at my nose. And then I start to notice how I really do tower over people usually. I mean I'm not a giant, although, I just started noticing how not average height I am for an Asian. I am 6'2 to be exact.
Since my last post, I've been thinking about a lot of things. To be honest, that post was a self-actualization and I really want to talk about those things with someone. I feel like I've come to terms with things and I just don't know where to go. I'm just standing around going " now what" and it kind of bothers me sometimes because this is such a weird subject.
I'm getting tired. I just got home from work and I need to sleep. At least I'm off today.
And I'm just taking things wayy out of context and I get all bent out of shape out of no where, which is totally nothing like I usually am. Like today, a coworker asked me why my belt was the way it was, and I got mad out of no where and asked her in such a rude way "WHY?? What's wrong with it?". She could totally sense that I was all edgy and clarified what she was asking about. She was asking why the notches skip all over the place on my belt, because I had to put more notches in it since I have lost weight since I bought that belt. But really I almost bit her head off.
I think I'm better now that I'm at home. I think I'm just making tantrums at work. AHAH. But it's not that bad I guess.
For some odd reason, I keep going around thinking that I'm 5'10 or something. I keep thinking that I'm average height and I'm not that tall. Until I hear this tall girl talking and she said that she was 5'10 and the top of her head was about at my nose. And then I start to notice how I really do tower over people usually. I mean I'm not a giant, although, I just started noticing how not average height I am for an Asian. I am 6'2 to be exact.
Since my last post, I've been thinking about a lot of things. To be honest, that post was a self-actualization and I really want to talk about those things with someone. I feel like I've come to terms with things and I just don't know where to go. I'm just standing around going " now what" and it kind of bothers me sometimes because this is such a weird subject.
I'm getting tired. I just got home from work and I need to sleep. At least I'm off today.
Hey - look at the bright side. You lost weight.
You're tall, omg, you're really tall! I'm at least 5 inches shorter than you are.