Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Lately, I have been really distracted with things. In a good way I suppose. I've been feeling good about things and excited for the littlest things that come up. Just as long as I have plans, I'm happy.
I have been getting close to my friend Charlene a lot lately, we're at the point where we can talk a little more openly about things. No more beating around the bush. We will even talk about sex if the conversation comes to it. We say whatever is on our mind at this point.
I also befriended Charlene's Co-worker Chai and her husband Ronnie. We have also been hanging around them a lot lately as well. So things are fun. We have a lot of activities and we finally found someone who likes to eat and cook Asian food as much as we do. We're getting close to them and they even offered me to move in with them if I ever plan to move out. Which is another story, but I do plan on moving with them in a few months.
It's nice to have a little group of friends that have nothing better to do just like me and actually want to do things. Charlene and I have been running into people that want to befriend us but they are SOOO boring and don't want to do anything. All they want to do is watch The Office and Glee and sit on their couch with a blanket all day (It actually happened to us more than once). Which there is nothing wrong with that, but I'd prefer to go take a walk some where, or try to cook some Pad Thai and enjoy it over some Mimosas and a good conversation.
So I have been happy with how I spend my time. More than content. Wayyy more than content.
I have also been texing Michael here and there. Gosssh he is really starting to annoy me and Charlene. He has never had a boyfriend, and he is putting himself through the shittiest of situations and yet he has the nerve to complain. We try to give him advice, but he is soo stubborn. Honestly, I think he's in it for the attention, which we are pretty much giving him. Because what nut job would keep complaining if he's putting himself in the shit storm that he is going through right now? Charlene and I feel like we need to put him in check or something. So we plan on visiting his boring place and wreaking havoc upon his kitchen soon.
AND ZOMG he needs to quit it with the LOL's already. Lol (ew)
Regina texted me out of no where. Asked me " have you ever been to the gay bar?" I told her " what do you think" and she got all kinds of offended and started going off. After I told her that I was just joking and she calmed down she asked if I wanted to go, and when I told her that I had work she said she was just going to go by herself. Regina is a straight woman, with a huge huge HUGE ass, and a kid. And she plans on going to the Gay bar by herself. I don't get it. Even if it's true that straight people go there all the time, Ummm what kind of fun are you looking for if you go there on your own? She's dumb and she's annoying. There's a reason why I stopped talking to her.
Back to people who are always looking for a relationship, I'm getting tired of people always in a rush to be in a relationship. Some one recently told me that they didn't want to be single. Okay, I understand that. But what I don't understand is how they so badly want a relation ship that they start looking all desperately and moping about it. Isn't love kind of a gamble, where you don't know what you're going to get and when you're going to get it? I don't know much myself about love, I'm pretentious about it, but I mean it's obvious that if you're looking for a long term relationship, it's not something you point your finger at and say "I want that" It takes time!. It annoys me so much at how these people act like this.
Which also leads me to the thought about my own sexuality. Honestly, I think I'm turning asaxual. I'm losing interest in the same-sex at the moment and not quite gaining interest in the opposite either. I think I'm tired of the whole love game things and it's really not looking fun for me either.
It's probably a phase, But males and females are really complicated to me. Or maybe I'm just too complicated myself.
Probably not the latter.
But I'm confused at things right now. I wonder if I'll have another revelation where I'll finally understand what I really want.
But forget that for now. I want to eat, hear, and see things. I'd rather have adventure over a relationship at the moment.
I have been getting close to my friend Charlene a lot lately, we're at the point where we can talk a little more openly about things. No more beating around the bush. We will even talk about sex if the conversation comes to it. We say whatever is on our mind at this point.
I also befriended Charlene's Co-worker Chai and her husband Ronnie. We have also been hanging around them a lot lately as well. So things are fun. We have a lot of activities and we finally found someone who likes to eat and cook Asian food as much as we do. We're getting close to them and they even offered me to move in with them if I ever plan to move out. Which is another story, but I do plan on moving with them in a few months.
It's nice to have a little group of friends that have nothing better to do just like me and actually want to do things. Charlene and I have been running into people that want to befriend us but they are SOOO boring and don't want to do anything. All they want to do is watch The Office and Glee and sit on their couch with a blanket all day (It actually happened to us more than once). Which there is nothing wrong with that, but I'd prefer to go take a walk some where, or try to cook some Pad Thai and enjoy it over some Mimosas and a good conversation.
So I have been happy with how I spend my time. More than content. Wayyy more than content.
I have also been texing Michael here and there. Gosssh he is really starting to annoy me and Charlene. He has never had a boyfriend, and he is putting himself through the shittiest of situations and yet he has the nerve to complain. We try to give him advice, but he is soo stubborn. Honestly, I think he's in it for the attention, which we are pretty much giving him. Because what nut job would keep complaining if he's putting himself in the shit storm that he is going through right now? Charlene and I feel like we need to put him in check or something. So we plan on visiting his boring place and wreaking havoc upon his kitchen soon.
AND ZOMG he needs to quit it with the LOL's already. Lol (ew)
Regina texted me out of no where. Asked me " have you ever been to the gay bar?" I told her " what do you think" and she got all kinds of offended and started going off. After I told her that I was just joking and she calmed down she asked if I wanted to go, and when I told her that I had work she said she was just going to go by herself. Regina is a straight woman, with a huge huge HUGE ass, and a kid. And she plans on going to the Gay bar by herself. I don't get it. Even if it's true that straight people go there all the time, Ummm what kind of fun are you looking for if you go there on your own? She's dumb and she's annoying. There's a reason why I stopped talking to her.
Back to people who are always looking for a relationship, I'm getting tired of people always in a rush to be in a relationship. Some one recently told me that they didn't want to be single. Okay, I understand that. But what I don't understand is how they so badly want a relation ship that they start looking all desperately and moping about it. Isn't love kind of a gamble, where you don't know what you're going to get and when you're going to get it? I don't know much myself about love, I'm pretentious about it, but I mean it's obvious that if you're looking for a long term relationship, it's not something you point your finger at and say "I want that" It takes time!. It annoys me so much at how these people act like this.
Which also leads me to the thought about my own sexuality. Honestly, I think I'm turning asaxual. I'm losing interest in the same-sex at the moment and not quite gaining interest in the opposite either. I think I'm tired of the whole love game things and it's really not looking fun for me either.
It's probably a phase, But males and females are really complicated to me. Or maybe I'm just too complicated myself.
Probably not the latter.
But I'm confused at things right now. I wonder if I'll have another revelation where I'll finally understand what I really want.
But forget that for now. I want to eat, hear, and see things. I'd rather have adventure over a relationship at the moment.
Good idea - go for the adventure. It'll be more fun.
I've been there with the whole asexual thing (years ago). I eventually moved on. It seems to me that the work involved in a relationship was too tiring - so I avoided the situations.
I don't know where I am right now - but it doesn't really matter. I'm happy at the moment, so what happens, happens. Sound like you might be in a similar place.
-nl
Yeah, it's a phase. I know I'll one around one day (I just don't know when). I'm just not attracted to people right now. I've gotten a little taste of jersey shore an I was a little disguisted.
But you know what though? I love the chelsey lately show and modern family.
Off topic but that's what I was thinking about.
But it puts me in a good mood everytime I watch those shows haha
any how, relationships are very turing, and it's superficial requirements are starting to look bat shit to me and I don't like it for now.
I know what you mean. Sometimes I wonder if I'm capable of maintaining a "normal" relationship. Or if I even want to.
Modern Family is great. So is Chelsea Lately. Better Off Ted also cracks me up.