Sunday, January 3, 2010
I am trying to pack up for my trip to Long Beach but it is taking me forever. I don't know what to wear. I feel like I don't have anything to wear whenever I go on these trips but I have so many clothes.
Things since the New Year have been alright. It's only the 3rd so nothing really much is happening.
I've been getting messages from Evan here and there. What does it take for someone to leave you alone? He can't get a damn clue. I'm almost over the guy. I'd say about 75% over him. And it's making it easier for me to ignore his little letters to me in my inbox. It's all talk to me now.
I think I'm going to stop worrying about dating so much. I went through a spell of that and I think I'm done for time being.
I'm going to focus on me, my car, my finances, my fun, my fitness, my trips, My art, my life as a whole.
I know I'm young, but I get a little tired of looking for someone. I haven't had too many relationships either but it kind of bores me. Sometimes I sit there and watch people and wonder if I'm even really gay or not because sometimes I don't even like guys.
And I get really bored when talking to people who could be a possible romance interest. I guess I'm just looking for too much in one person. And personally I feel silly saying things like "outgoing" or " caring" or "great listener". I don't know anything about myself really. I just do what I do.
And I feel silly worrying if the other person likes me or not. I personally don't care. I personally just want to act out on what I think is right and what I find funny and what I like to do and just be considerate to the other person. The thought of trying to impress someone based on looks, personality and assets seems really silly to me and it really discourages me to look for people.
I just want to be me.
Honestly, I'm fine just hanging out with friends, talking to Charlene about weird things like fart and making jokes. I'm really actually happier that way.
Not to be mean, but how do the really over-done and not so nice looking guys become sluts? I mean there is something out there for everyone but sometimes, it's like OH MY GOD YOUR FACE and they're like the biggest sluts.
Honestly, I personally believe that I'm not that bad looking myself, but you don't see me all up in everyone's booties.
Okay. I'm going to stop now. I'm getting carried away. I need to pack.
Things since the New Year have been alright. It's only the 3rd so nothing really much is happening.
I've been getting messages from Evan here and there. What does it take for someone to leave you alone? He can't get a damn clue. I'm almost over the guy. I'd say about 75% over him. And it's making it easier for me to ignore his little letters to me in my inbox. It's all talk to me now.
I think I'm going to stop worrying about dating so much. I went through a spell of that and I think I'm done for time being.
I'm going to focus on me, my car, my finances, my fun, my fitness, my trips, My art, my life as a whole.
I know I'm young, but I get a little tired of looking for someone. I haven't had too many relationships either but it kind of bores me. Sometimes I sit there and watch people and wonder if I'm even really gay or not because sometimes I don't even like guys.
And I get really bored when talking to people who could be a possible romance interest. I guess I'm just looking for too much in one person. And personally I feel silly saying things like "outgoing" or " caring" or "great listener". I don't know anything about myself really. I just do what I do.
And I feel silly worrying if the other person likes me or not. I personally don't care. I personally just want to act out on what I think is right and what I find funny and what I like to do and just be considerate to the other person. The thought of trying to impress someone based on looks, personality and assets seems really silly to me and it really discourages me to look for people.
I just want to be me.
Honestly, I'm fine just hanging out with friends, talking to Charlene about weird things like fart and making jokes. I'm really actually happier that way.
Not to be mean, but how do the really over-done and not so nice looking guys become sluts? I mean there is something out there for everyone but sometimes, it's like OH MY GOD YOUR FACE and they're like the biggest sluts.
Honestly, I personally believe that I'm not that bad looking myself, but you don't see me all up in everyone's booties.
Okay. I'm going to stop now. I'm getting carried away. I need to pack.
Sorry if all I took out was "Honestly, I personally believe that I'm not that bad looking myself, but you don't see me all up in everyone's booties."
PRICELESS!
Glad that you're feeling better about the break up.
Dating. Ugh. Never fun. You're line about just hanging out with Charlene and being yourself. That's what it's supposed to be like. But for whatever reason, rarely is.
Have fun in SoCal. Wish I was going, too.
My gosh, I am so excited about going To SoCal. I'm coming home!
Now if I can just get to packing!
I guess I can say that I'm totally over the guy. He's so finished. If you don't want to see someone any more you're considered finished I think.
Thanks guys!